Gender Reversed Geum Taeyang - Chapter 21

Chapter 21 – Something’s Changing

-What’s going on?
-How did you meet Rete after taking just one day off?
-He just casually revealed Rete’s real name wtf lololol

The call with Ari ended, and the toxic viewers left.
My mental state was about to break down.

This was too unfair. I’m someone with basic moral standards, and I had no desire to arbitrarily call out someone’s real name on stream.

It was fortunate that Ari let it slide without saying anything. If she had gotten genuinely angry with me while we were on the phone, it could have dealt a huge blow to the stream.

-This guy’s expression looked crazy earlier
-Never seen a man make such a lewd expression
-Heung… oppa
-Just do it one more time damn

Damn… Last time I only got comments about how handsome my smile was, but now I look like some kind of pervert.

If there’s any silver lining, maybe it’s that the overall tension of the stream went up.

Yeah, since I can’t take back what’s already happened, I should just think positively. Didn’t everything end well anyway?

Hmm.

I think Ari will understand too. Probably.

… Come to think of it, wasn’t Ari the one who caused this in the first place! It sounds pretty pathetic to say this, but…

Anyway, that aside.

Earlier, I read a strange emotion.

When Ari responded with “yes” to my command, that subtle rise in her voice.

How should I describe it? Joy? Happiness? Or perhaps affection towards me?

I’m not the type of person to fall in love just because someone greeted me once, so it feels strange to make such assumptions based on such a minor clue.

But my body felt it that way.

Even though it’s a conclusion that would never come from rational judgment, my body read positive emotions from that response.

I can’t understand what this crazy body is thinking and doing.

Well, truthfully, I never understood Geum Taeyang’s emotions in the first place, nor did I want to understand them.

… Never mind.

These are emotions I won’t need to understand in the future either.

Because I have no intention of living like Geum Taeyang.

If the day comes when I get used to this body, maybe I’ll be able to control those damn instincts too.

I can’t mess up other things by focusing on issues that I’ve somehow managed to get past.

For now, the stream.

Let’s focus on the stream.

I’ll think about everything else later.

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-??? Is this okay?
-Is Rete’s real name Ari?
-Just let it slide
-Let’s be mindful, guys

I said I was going to the bathroom, but what I’m actually doing here is spying on my stream.

Looking in the mirror, I can see my face flushed red.

Even after washing my face three times, the heat won’t subside.

This is the first time my face has gotten this red, maybe that’s why it’s harder to calm down.

My real name being revealed?

I was just keeping it hidden because there was no particular need to reveal it, but it’s not really a big issue.

Actually, it would have been more appropriate for me to reveal it myself, so I could be angry about it… but since Yuhan did it, I don’t feel particularly bothered.

Anyway, the reason I can’t manage my face right now is because of embarrassment.

A woman taking orders from – no, actually receiving orders from a man of the same age and responding formally. There’s a lot of talk these days about masculinity and femininity, but I was born a woman and I have my pride.

And in front of about 6,600 viewers combining my stream and Yuhan’s stream! Blushing! Speaking formally!

Of course, I usually used formal speech on stream, but still, the feeling was different…

Damn. I’m not usually someone who experiences such dramatic emotional changes.

The guilt I feel towards Yuhan is being heavily invaded by shame.

And what was with my face turning red earlier when Yuhan gave me orders?

Was I always into that sort of thing? Dom-sub… or whatever?

No way. That’s nonsense. I’ve lived such a wholesome life.

Just, just my heart fluttered a bit. I can admit that much.

Even though I’m a woman with a boyfriend, that kind of thing can happen, right!

I’ve lived without paying much attention to men, and after starting to date Junhyuk, I’ve only looked at him. I think I’ve maintained a rather stoic attitude towards men.

Even so, Yuhan’s appearance is honestly remarkably handsome. That appearance befitting the name Geum Taeyang, though it’s hidden.

Women are naturally weak to handsome men, so it’s not strange that even I might get a bit excited when talking to a man of that caliber.

Yeah, it was just because Yuhan is so handsome that I felt a little something.

It’s not that I’m strange.

It’s not that I’ve become strange.

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I’ve always taken internet broadcasting seriously and considered myself a professional in the industry.

So even though there have been various happenings, I’m confident I can make the broadcast entertaining again somehow.

Of course, I’m not sure if the five-day break or today’s terrorism by my viewers on Yuhan’s stream can be dismissed as simple happenings.

What I want to say is just… the broadcast ended well.

My full name was revealed, and I prevented toxic viewers from increasing by showing off my friendship with Yuhan.

In the end, by the time I finished streaming just now, the usual cheerful atmosphere had returned.

The viewers half-jokingly, half-seriously shouting not to go, and me playing along a bit before ending the stream right at midnight.

Now I should review today’s broadcast and talk with the managers and editors before going to sleep… but somehow I don’t feel like doing that tonight.

Maybe because I’m physically tired? No, my physical condition isn’t bad. I’m not sure.

Usually I’m someone who strictly follows plans, but why am I like this today?

I entered their room on the chat program Discord to announce that I’m just going to rest early today, then completely closed the program.

Then, as if possessed by something, I type ‘Geum Taeyang’ in TwitchyTV’s search bar.

Like me, Yuhan starts streaming at 6 PM, but ends an hour later than I do. Checking now, his stream is still on.

I think today was quite an eventful day, but Yuhan seems to be streaming at his usual pace. He’s really a diligent person, unlike his appearance.

His game streams always have the same screen layout. A small game screen with a webcam feed filling most of the monitor.

Although we’ve only met in person three days ago, now seeing his face makes an inexplicable excitement well up.

I thought about wondering why I developed these feelings… but I stopped. Now isn’t the time to dwell on such things.

I recalled the chat messages I sent until the end of Yuhan’s stream yesterday. The content is already hazy, but I remember the emotions from then and the overall feeling of those chats.

Fingers moving according to instinct. Writing single-line chat messages while glancing at the chat window scrolling up beside the screen.

-His control is unnecessarily good
-For real lololol
-You seem really good at games but why do you only play Minecraft all day ffs
-Oppa, do you really not want to play something like LOL? Seems like you’d get tons of viewers

[Can’t handle the lag while streaming LOL. Those bastards curse a lot too.]

-?
-?
-?

What kind of ordinary chat messages are these?

I don’t like it. The chat becoming wholesome all of a sudden today.

You guys aren’t usually like this. Sure, I only watched the stream for the first time yesterday, but the atmosphere must have been like yesterday usually too.

Otherwise, there’s no way such a heated broadcast like yesterday could have happened.

Why did it become so boring?

Someone needs to start first so I can blend in properly.

No… wouldn’t it be okay if I started first?

It’s not that big of a deal.

If I can feel the same sensation as yesterday with just this one chat…

…

…

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Wait. This isn’t my alt account…?

The moment I realized that, I came to my senses.

The computer always logged into my main broadcasting account ‘Rete’. I almost sent such a chat message when it wasn’t even an alt account.

Goosebumps rise on both arms. Cold sweat breaks out all over my body.

After deleting the chat and forcing the computer to shut down by pressing the power button, I immediately walked to the bedroom and collapsed face-down on the bed.

My hands are trembling. My heart is beating like crazy.

It was a mistake that could have cost me everything from my social reputation to my social relationships.

If I had been caught doing something like that, what would my family, friends, broadcasting colleagues, and school peers have thought of me?

If that had happened… what would Yuhan… have said to me?

Why is it that when I think about that, I’m reminded of Yuhan’s forceful tone from earlier?

Is this thrilling feeling just from the fact that I nearly got into big trouble?

I can feel my body getting excited, but I had a feeling it wasn’t just because of this mistake.

With my face buried in the pillow… thinking about tomorrow makes my mood suddenly improve.

Definitely, I’ve.

Changed a bit lately.

(End of chapter)